getting emotional over lisp

Man, what a journey. I started this blog quite a while ago with the intention of bringing lisp-esque elegance to php. This led to phparrayplus (which I still think is really cool considering it works in just "normal" php) and fluent expressions being used to implement DSLs. Now I have the transmogrifier which allows me to implement custom syntax in native php with no extra .so or extension. I am now using that same transmogrifier to implement lisp syntax and functionality (yes macros included). It is a thing of great beauty. I keep having moments of "this is genius" paired directly with "this is insane. what am I doing?" hahaha.